Almost 8 month WLS check-up

So I missed my 6 month check-up and finally re-scheduled it at almost 8 months (badddddd I know!!). Anyways, I got in and first things first...weigh in. I was really excited to get on the scale because my digital scale at home broke from water damage. I'M DOWN 113 LBS!!!!!!!! CHYEA!!!!! Oh I was REALLYYYYYYY happy with that because my weight hasn't budged for a while when I was using the scale at the gym so yea, that was great news. Next, I go in the "exam" room and the M.A. comes in, checks vitals, and gives me two pieces of paper to fill out. One is an overall eating behavior questionaire and the other was a self grading paper. The questionaire asked things like how often do you eat "slider foods" (nuts, chips, soups), sodas, drink with meals, drink alcohol, eat high fatty/deep fried foods, and so on...you get the point. The answers ranged from never, yearly, monthly, weekly or daily. Now, I didn't do TOO bad but to me I did bad enough because they obviously know around 6 months you kinda start veering off-track. The other page was to grade yourself on you own eating habits and to keep for yourself. They keep the questionnaire. She said it's really only to show you where you aren't doing so good and to stay on track. I think I did fairly well! Next, gallbladder sonogram. Now, let me say this much first off. Before my surgery, they did a sonogram on my gallbladder and I had a few small stones and they gave me a prescription to dissolve the stones. Well, I never turned it in/took them. So, she asked me if I took them and I told her I didn't and she told me that she wasn't going to lie and it's probably worse now. ohhh crap! I lay down on the table, get the hot gel squirted on me, and she looks around and sure enough my gallbladder is FULLLLLL of stones!! DAMNIT!!!!!!!!!!!! There are several factors that contribute to gallstones and I had MANY of them. Three big ones stick out the most to me: Pregnancy (I had 3 pregnancies), being overweight (duh), and dropping a large amount of weight really fast (WLS). So, now I have to have my gallbladder removed. So to any of you reading this and this happens with the gallbladder...DON'T BE STUPID!!! TAKE THE MEDS!!!!!! HAHAHA But anyways, other than that, everything was good. I'm right on track. Their goal for a year is 100 lbs and I've lost that 5/6 months. Alright, long enough, thanks for reading!! XOXOXO y'all are the best!!!!!!!!

Insensitive remark!

Alright, now that I am pretty much over it, I need to blog about something that happened to me Saturday. Well to start off, I have been dealing with extra (saggy) skin as a result of my 110 lb weight loss and I've become really sensitive about it. I even went and bought a big bottle of skin tightening cream for my "trouble" areas (upper arms, inner thighs, butt cheeks, and stomach). So, as I am rubbing this tightening lotion on my lower body, my husband had the "bright" idea of saying "dang, look at those saddlebags" OMG!!!!!! I was so furious, upset, and mostly HURT! I just gave him "the look" and really didn't say a whole lot. I kinda laughed it off so I guess he thought I was ok with it. Well, in reality, it bothered me ALL day! Later that night, after having a couple of glasses of wine, I was sitting up in bed kind of just spacing out, lost in thought. He asked me what was wrong a couple of times and I said nothing. Finally, I just bursted out in tears and told him that what he said really hurt me, that he knew how sensitive i've gotten about my saggy skin (hell everyone who knows me personally knows how much it's been bothering me), and I just cried and spoke my mind until I fell asleep. He said he was sorry and was joking about it. I can take a joke but that was really hard for me!! Men can be so insensitive and say mean and hurtful things, without even trying. I know he didn't mean to hurt me, but he did. Men, if you are reading this, PLEASE try and THINK before you open your mouth and insert foot! LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am not man bashing, I'm just saying, you might not know how much you are hurting a woman by certain things you say. OK that's it!! Thanks for reading my thoughts. xoxo

FREAKING OUT! (WLS friends PLEASE READ AND REPLY)

OK Y'all I am a little freaked out right now!! I am starting to be able to eat larger portions of foods and it's really freaking me out!!!! Like the other night I ate a half of a grilled chicken breast and about a 1/2 cup of peas and carrots. And this morning I ate 1/2 C. of egg beaters (equivalent to 2 eggs) w/ 1/4 C. of shredded cheddar and some salsa, a half of a slice of bacon and a whole kiwi!! I am only 7 and a half months out and I'm afraid I'm eating too much. I mean I DO get full!! That's not the problem but some days it seems like I can put some food AWAY and others it seems like the smallest amounts of food fill me up...it's so weird! I know I can eat ALOT more soup or soft foods like cottage cheese than I can meats and and breads but was my breakfast too much at this stage????????? Maybe I should just not try and push it. I don't want to stretch my pouch out!! That's my biggest fear is that I will stretch my pouch out and gain my weight back. I'd rather DIE than be as big as I was before my surgery!!!!!!!!!!!! (OK that is a little exaggerated but I really do get scared about how much I can eat sometimes!!) Does anyone else (WLS friends) feel this way??? Please share your thoughts on this!!!

7 months out and 110 lbs down!! :)

Rest In Peace Alan LeBlanc

RANT!!

OK this is more of a rant than anything. I've come to realize how shallow people are. How they indeed treat larger people differently than smaller people. Like we aren't meant to even breathe the same air or some crap! The more weight I lose, the more I realize how shallow men (and women) were to me when I was 110 lbs heavier LOL (this doesn't include you chubby chasers out there reading this HAHAHA)!!!! I notice how much more attention I get now...hmmmmmmmmmm I mean, yea, it's flattering and even amusing but at the same time it really PISSES ME OFF! Mostly because I have been on both sides of the fence (well I'm getting to the "skinny" side LOL) and to see the truth that thinner people really DO get treated differently just because of their size just urks me in the WORST way. It's not just assumption anymore...I've seen it first hand!!!! And I know it's not going to get any better the smaller I get either. I didn't have this surgery for my appearance...that is just one of the pros to the whole thing. I did this for MY health and for my family. I didn't want to end up with diabetes and other co-morbidities resulting from being overweight. I'm the same damn person I was 110 lbs ago and I will continue to be the same person when I am thinner and healthy =D I thought I was a VERY beautiful person on the inside as well as out before my surgery and of course I think the samePost Options...well even more so now! haha I've had people say how great I look now, which makes me feel incredible but then there's some that make me feel like I was ugly when I was heavier and that just makes me upset because I know I was still a beautiful woman even at my heaviest. So...my rant is this...to all of you shallow people out there...QUIT!!!!!! It's not right at all. It's hateful and mean and fat people beat themselves up enough....they don't NEED YOUR HELP DOING IT! OK I'm done...thanks for reading this! xoxo <3333333

Did I need to have this DRASTIC surgery?

So, after replying to one of my e-mails on my OH website, I realized I had some thoughts I needed to get out. OK, I thought at one point, did I REALLY need to have this drastic surgery to lose weight and be healthy? I had family members saying, after seeing how easy it is for me to make healthy eating decisions and my want to exercise, I could have done this on my own. But could I? Looking back at myself, I was happy with the person I was but not with my health going down the crap shoot. I was 378 lbs people and damn near in a size 30 jeans. That was the FINAL STRAW!! I wasn't getting smaller...with every child I put on more weight and then feeding a family of 6 it was just easier to stop and get fast food or cook processed foods which I was eating alot of and so was my family. This surgery helped my of course lose weight but also gave me control back of what and how much I was eating. I prefer to eat healthy and only want to buy the healthiest foods I can afford for my family (no I can't go completely 100% organic, all natural, and minimally processed just yet...but I'm working on it!!). I do a pretty good job of that. In return, this surgery has helped my kids live healthier and hopefully won't fall into the same bad rut I was in that ended me up on the OR table getting WLS. This surgery isn't a quick fix. It's just a tool to help you lose weight. You can NOT rely solely on the surgery to lose weight and think you can eat ANYTHING you want and still be successful...that's SO not true!! It's pretty easy for the weight to come off for the first 6 months or so but after that...it's almost all YOU! You CAN trick your body into eating more by drinking with your meals but that completely defeats the whole purpose!! So the surgery is NOT fool proof. You have to be mentally ready to fully commit to a whole new lifestyle of eating and being active to truly be successful. So, to answer that question, I think the answer is yes. I needed the help the surgery gave me to live a healthier life and I would go back and do it time and time again. I would definitely recommend it to anyone who was in my shoes.

You are a little snobby

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Being a little snobby every once and a while is totally allowed.
If no one was ever snobby, people wouldn't try to better themselves.

While you enjoy the finest things in life (that you can afford), you do tire of superficiality.
You know there's more to life than what's just on the surface.

Are You Snobby?

yea pretty much!